Posted July 23, 2009on:
I hate nights… I really really do. I can be as comfy as a 40 week + pregnant woman can be during the daytime but night all the aches and pains and crap start up. And no not the “good” getting the baby out kind 😦 No idea why but I am having major heartburn again tonight. It feels like I swallowed an apple whole and its just sort of sitting in my chest. Usually a couple TUMS will save the day but this time they don’t seem to be working…
In about an hour or so BG should be starting her nightly disco which involved stretching her legs and elbows up and down my right side for an hour or two. She doesn’t do much during the day… but after midnight until 3 or so she parties like its her birthday… which of course it isn’t.
I NEED to go and get my gaikokujin card changed tomorrow as I still haven’t done it yet. Was planning to the day I got hospitalized but obviously that didn’t happen and since the City Hall is a 30 minute bus ride away I’ve sort of been putting it off but since I only have 3 weeks to “legally” change it I better get it done sooner than later. Not too thrilled about that PLUS having to register my pregnancy in Nagaoka… I was sort of hoping she would be born before the 3 weeks were up so I could avoid the situation but my luck has been in the trash can since I moved to Niigata so I shouldn’t have expected any sort of upswing.
Besides that no plans really… Ryohei has asked me not to have the baby until after tomorrow night since he will be up in the mountains and out of cellphone range setting up for a festival this weekend. Have I also mentioned he is going to be working late Friday and has work all-day Sunday?! So.. as you can see I’m really crossing my fingers for Saturday since its the only time he is really going to be around in the next few days 😦
I guess time is going by quickly.. I was hospitalized 2 weeks ago tonight and it doesn’t seem like its been that long since then but at the same time for the past week or so every single day and night feel like a year. And from what everyone has been telling me… going 10 days – 2 weeks past is not unnormal. It just makes me want to cry.
MIL also called tonight to “check-up.” I HATE that… its not like we aren’t going to notify our families when I go in to give birth. No news is just THAT – NO NEWs. Ryohei has been fairly supportive but I can tell he’s getting a bit antsy as well. He asks me everynight if I’ve had pains or show or anything and always seems fairly disappointed with the CONSTANT negative on all of the above. I had to email him today to remind him to pay our rent and he thought something was going on and was super disappointed when the mail had nothing to do with any sort of birth activity.
I guess another reason I hate nights is that at least in the daytime I can retain some sort of positivity… at night all my negativity returns and I find myself falling into the selfpity pit.
Maybe I’ve just been blogging to much and need to take a break from it all 😦 I’m sure no one wants to read all this crap anyways – most of you are probably thinking I need to buck up and just ride it out. In my head I know its true… but I just can’t help but feel so down in the dumps as another day of nandemonai passes.
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