Archive for August 2010
Tonight reminds me of 4 years ago…
Sprawled out on the tatami with my computer, Utada Hikaru as background music, no husband, no baby.. just me and the internet.
Makes you realize that alone time is important, but I don’t think I’d trade to go back to be unattached and no kids… too lonely. I can’t imagine spending every night like this anymore. So funny because even yesterday I was dying for a break, another night to be single with no responsibilities besides getting to work on time in the morning.
I’m not a “great” mom or wife… just a flawed person who tries her best but fails as much or more as she succeeds. Both Ryohei and Sakura try my patience at least a few times a week… but now that he’s away on business and she’s asleep I realize that I miss the noise and chaos that is my little family.
I’m sure tomorrow I’ll think differently, but at least tonight I’m happy with the choices I’ve made.
I’m in a good place to start the healthy eating/exercise plan and also to start looking for work… no visitors for the near future, no more excuses.
Wonder where we’ll be 4 years from now?